Am back With new SPIRIT!!!

Owhhh baby, baby! Muh baby, baby! lalala..kekekeke teringat lagu F4 lak...hihi TARAAAAAA! Introducing muh new baby! Baby cikai je ni, yela bpatutan le dgn kemampuan aku, idokle teman mampu nak angkut camry..huhuhu Smpai pencen pon idokle teman mampu mengusap pon camry tuh..huhu 

Tetapi aku sgt berpuas ati n bersyukur, hasil penat lelah selama ni at least ade 1 aset dlm idup aku.. Aku berangan lama da tp keadaan xizinkan.. Dtg perkara yg paling penting dlm idup aku dulu iaitu studi, kawen n keje... Alhamdulillah, syukur, walopon merangkak plahan-lahan tp Allah murahkan rezeki.. Jgn dipertikaikan nape, nape, nape tp ini satu keperluan..

BUT, dgn keadaan jalan yg aku guna utk pegi keje, mmg xleh berangan le nmpak baru lelama.. Jalan kampung, adela berturap muat-muat keta, yg len lobang je bnyak..huhu I will always keep on looking at d positive side! 

Dalam ketawa ada Duka....

Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa? Aku sgt miserable skarang.. berita gembira menjadi sedih... Aku xtawu apa lg yg xkena, memula kata ok, bila da nmpak semuanya jd ko.. Apa lg yg tak kena???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Len kali la aku upload gambar baby baru, bila da tak terasa baru kot br nk upload...hahahahaha Come on myself!!!! Cheer up!!!! But why it feels hurt inside.... 

Baby Baru!!!

Jeng..jeng.jeng!!!!!!!!!!!! Yiosh! Lagi sejam lbey aku akan mendapat baby baru!!!!!!! hehehe Apa dia?? Wait n Seeeee... Excited tp ujan lak wat aku risooooo lak... Will update later! 

p/s: Kini aku suda kuar dr kelompok monyet..huahaha semalam pi klinik sekali lg, arini sgt2x ok, alhamdulillah...T_T terharu..wuwuwu

Aku Tobat!!!!

Aku allergikla!!! Bkn allergik dgn laki yek..hehehe Kalo x, xdela aku nikah...hahhaha Adessssss, smbil menaip ni menggaru jek... Da dekat sejam kena cucuk tp dok merah n gatal2x lagik...Tseksanye...wuwuuwwu.. 


Alkisahnye, semalam sebelum tido tetiba aku rs gatal2 je bdn... Tp aku wat donno le sbb aku terpikir nek ruam kot, sbb cuaca panass skang neh... Bgn pg mandi, tp still gatal2x xilang dan aku wat donno jek lagi... ish3x Tak prihatin dgn bdn sndre tolla!


Pegi sekolah dgn muka poyo, agenda still mcm biesa, terus pi kantin makan dgn gembiranya (bihun separuh, maggi goreng half gak, pekat sungguh perencah smpai masin)... Utk pengetahuan, da sebulan da aku bnyak mkn mknan kantin je n tak makan kat umah.. Aku da agak da, mkanan luar ni musti ade je sbb nk bg aku sakit..huhuuuhu choi! mentekedarah gak! hohoho Dan skang bdn ni bagai dipam-pam, makan xkontrol, telan je ape rasa nak telan, tu Tuhan marah gamaknye, tarik abeh nikmat makan aku skang...wuwuwu.. Insap2x

dan aku mengajar dlm kelas mcm biesa, kekadang mengaru-garu.. Tp bila dok dlm aircond kat staffroom, xdelak nk mnggaru.. kih3x.. Pehtu akak sekerja wat pot luck, sesambil aku mkn nasi lemak, cheese cake, kuih muih..hehe Pehtu dlm pukul 12.45 lunch lak, mkn nasi tomato, berlaukkan ayam (da sebulan mkn ayam jek) n kerabu.. Mkn dgn HEPInya lagik! hohoho

Tibala waktu kritikal time drive nak blek umah.. Keta bapak aku da r tak tinted cermin, sepanjang nek highway, matahari memancarla dgn jayanya, dan aku mula lah rs panas, n sambil drive, menggaru sana, menggaru sini smpai aku rs rimas... Sesampai jek umah, time nk buka tudung (tgk cerminla kan..hehe) Tetiba aku pelik tgk muka aku... Awat merah bersinar jek.. Tu..tu bawah bibir bengkak n tompok2 merah.. Tetiba satu bdn gatai teramat, n aku mula la proses check-mengecheck...hehe sensored jek bunyi..=p

Ya Allah!!! 1 bdn aku mcm dgn kena dera ka..hahaha Penuh naik merah2x merata, n paling teruk dekat kaki.. Aku yg panik ni pon bgtawu mama aku.. Mama aku pon tkejotla, tp sempat fikir logik, dia ckp aku ni allergik ni sbb kecik2 dulu selalu kena kalo silap mkn.. Jd mcmnila.. dan yg paling tepat sgtla GATAL!!!! Perghhh aku sabo je menaip post ni nak psiko otak aku, jgn pikir gatal2x ni...ishhhhh tp pi sebut lak, lagila terasa!!! erghghghghghghg...

Aku pon cepat2x mandi, pi klinik n xpayah bgtawula aku bawak keta mcmana.. Sambil tergaru-garu, dgn rs panas haba kat merah2 yg naik..huhuhu ZAP! Doktor cucuk (mcm cucuk lemak aku jek..=p) dan bg ubat mkn.. Tp smpai skang xberkurang pon...wahhhhhhhhhhh Yang paling aku sedih neh, mulai arini aku TAK boleh makan ayam, memula doc tu ckp... susspeenn jek, tetiba dia tambah lak, actually semua makanan mcm ayam, telur, seafood, ikan, aku kena pantang...arghhhhhh!!! HOBI aku tue makan!!!(ala2x pelakon merayu sambil tarik kaki mak mertua) So, kena jadi vegetarian la? Dengan konfidennya doktor ckp... YA, BETULLL!!! arghhhhhhh Aku rs ni doa akak2x sekerja aku yg nk tgk aku kurus blek...waaaaaaa

Post ni yg paling aku bnyak nangis kot..huhuhu sob..sobb... Makananku..wuwuwu Aku da tak tahan nak menaipp... gatei wehhh... Adiosss!!!

Since When I'm Here??

Suddenly it appears 2 me head... Since wen do I actually started blogging? If stated in da profile, now, it has been 1 year ++, quite new n actually I wasn't serious bout blogging before.. I actively involved in forums, (zmn belajar dulu2x, ghajinle..kui3x).. I heard bout blogging, kept on wondering n thinking dat I decided I was too lazy too update...huhuhu I didn't know a thing bout layout, creating an account or everything related 2 it.. During dat time, frenster was a phenomenon dat I thought, it was d same as blogging.. And YES, frenster had a mini blog oso, is it still exist?? I've stopped using frenster since d life was so miserable among frennss... (zmn belajar) n stick 2 FB.. Which is now being flooded with them oso...sigh (-_-") But hey, being a career woman n lives far away from them, does da trick! hahahaha

Thanx 2 my beloved lecturer, Pn Rohaya who gave me d chance 2 start blogging.. As am teslian, yup d research was in English, so I had 2 practise English in my 1st blog, Meadows of Heaven.. Still, I must practise it now n then as am an English teacher who lives far away from her hubby n need 2 express her experiences somewhere needed..hahaha

Now, I'll keep updating but for sure sometimes, I'll b bz wit works... Nowadays, teachers never go back home 1pm ye manusia2x skeptikal.. Sumtimes I went 2 skool at 6.30am n reached home 6.30pm..huuuuuu I'll never komplen esp if it is my duty 4r my kids.. Juz sumtimes, komplen 4r d works unrelated 2 teachings.. Sabo jela, br 10 bulan keje..hahaha


Owh, yessss.. dan aku tidak menjd blogger utk mendapatkan duit....;-) poyo je ayat..haha zasssss!

Kusss Semangat..aha!

acecececece... Spirit melampau lak nk menulih....hihihihi Sweet je tgk kaler peach, simbol akad nikah I dgn hubby tsyg... Dis new template is d symbol of my new resolution towards a new life we're heading... muahxxxx Ditemani lagu nat king cole lak, lgla kussssss semngat nk menulihnye..hehehehe Ok, aku amek secara positifnya..kussss semangat! aha!


Arini dlm dok bz-bz meraet buku2x bebudak tuh sempat lg dok berangan nk gi honeymoon, pk sana pk sini.. 2 in 1..hahahaha Sambil jln kelam kabut nk msk kelas, boleh lak pi paging membe2 sekerja jupe tepi koridor, tnya pernah pi sana sini x...hehe kat tempat berebut beli makanan kat kantin pon bule je jd ceritanya..ahahaha Lg nk dekat cuti bln 6 ni lg terasa semangat bekerja tu melampau-lampaunya... Haish.. Terjadi positif lak... Org lg malas, aku tlebey ghajinnn... hehe puji dre sndre, xbleh blah... Tp ade sbb... Supaya cuti aku xdikaco...huhuhu


Arini mood lg ceria sbb cuaca arini sejuk je... Mendung je dr pg... Aku smpai sek pkol 7.15 pon mcm pkol 6.45 je... Sejuk sesangat n bule plak PK aku buka aircond yg br diisyhtihar mggu ni bule pasang blek, xtutup smpai 3.30 pm td... hohoho Skang ni ramai je kengkawan kat staffroommm... Bebudak pon ramai je... Depa kata sejukkk, ske dok cni... Pala hangggukk!!! Pi msk kelas! ehehehehe


Berbalik kpd cerite aku td, cuti bln 6 nih..hehehe Aku da bgtawu kerani kesygan aku pasai nk amek cuti ahad buka sek sbb nk kena amek adik2 aku kat uia.. Depa nk blek sekali dgn aku, so, tpaksa r amek cuti.. Tp cuti ni xmsk rekod sbb ni adiah GB bg kat aku sbb pi bertugas jd pegawai kat Tmn Uda bln 3 arituh..hehe Pehtu, kerani kesygan aku siap galakkan aku amek cuti Senin sekali supaya rehat dulu..ehehehehe bagus tol kerani aku! Dia pon kata aku xguna cuti rehat lngsung lagi taun ni.. So, guna jela, redha jela..hahahaha


Am excited n can't wait for dis coming holidays!!! Semoga dipermudahkan segala..Amin..=)

Change d Mood..I Loike!

New template, new spirit!! yeah, rite! hahaha.. Hav loads of work now, but I dun bother bout it.. Feeling like doing sumthing fun! Wasting time in front of d lappy trying 2 understand d code, makes me dizzy but enjoying it to da bit! hahaha

Otak n telinga?

Otak: Kamu tawu kamu ni sentiMENTAL.. sensitip!
Telinga: Sudah semestinya...
Otak: Kamu tawu kamu ni degil!
Telinga: Sekarang aku tawu..
Otak: Kamu tawu yg kamu ni bnyak dengar benda lagha!
Telinga: sudah semestinya...tapi apa pula kamu OTAK?
Otak: Aku pandai berfikir..
Telinga: Jadi kamu tawu melalui aku, jd kamu pun sama, terlibat subahah together-gether!

S.E.R.E.N.A - dated 30th December 2008

This piece of writing was my 1st attempt to develop my writing skill esp in novel writing---it is in my another blog, Meadows of Heaven..Actually, dis was a project with my lecturer to help her in her research.. This is d final draft after series of editing... Hope u guys will enjoy reading dis..hahaha

She sits alone at the corner of the room, keeps scribbling on a sheet of paper. Never once, she blinks her eyes. When she feels bored, she wanders around the room trying to find an inspiration. The room is too dull and shabby. There are minimum amount of furniture; a small desk and a chair. She loves the spot which comfy her since she was introduced to the place. That is what she thought. She loves the view from the outside of the window. There are an old oak tree and a swing underneath it. The swing is broken; it is left maybe even before she existed in this world. The cruel world..


*****


“I didn’t have it! You did!” She stood still. She tried hard to maintain her composure. She stared blankly at the floor. She held Darla’s hand tightly, knowing her beloved twin sister was hurt too. They fought again. Every time, it was all about her. Her mother was stupid to mention her name in front of her father. Didn't her mother understand that she was a disgrace to her father? She was nothing in her father's eyes. She was only a punch bag.


“It’s not mine!” He threw the cup onto the floor. Her mother screamed. She closed her eyes, withdrawing from the door as she already knew what will happen next. It was mean and she could not bear it any longer. After years of hearing the word, finally she was angry. She did not have any tears to cry anymore. Still, she loved him, a father whom she always peeked out through the tiny hole of the door. She always saw her father as a tiny human being. She never had the chance to face him. She was not allowed to, by her own father.


She only knew her mother. Her mother was ugly just like her. Her father tore her mother’s skin everyday but her mother never complained. Her mother used to say that it was all because of love. She really determined to make her father as ugly as her mother so that her father will love her mother. That was what she has been thinking as she did not know what ‘love’ was supposed to mean. She loved her mother. That was what she thought.


Looking at Darla, she was beautiful. She did not know why, Darla was willing to be her friend. She found Darla at the basement of her house while she was looking for her mother. She kept Darla as a secret, as she was afraid her father would choose Darla besides her. Darla resembled the beautiful side of her, she loved looking at her night and day.


"I want to be like you Darla," she smiled at Darla. Usually, Darla would smile back and hold her hands. It felt so warm that she even forgot all of the misery in her life.


But now, she hates her.. Darla is evil but she will never spill it out. She is ugly after all, they love Darla and the utmost importance no one will believe her. Who will believe her? She nods several times. Then, she heads back to the desk. She starts to scribble on another sheet of paper.


“She has been behaving like that since we admitted her to this asylum,” Ms Jenny observes her from the wall of glass.


“She always draw this.” Ms Jenny gives sheet of papers to the new psychologist who will be taking over Serena’s case. He seems interested to look at them.


“Aren’t these drawings just the same from the crime scene?” He asks.


“Yes and actually these drawings resemble a ‘D’ letter, stands for Darla,” she pauses. “What we found out from Serena’s mother, she said that Serena always talked about her friend named Darla. Serena always pointed out that Darla was beautiful. She even contended that Darla killed her father.” Ms Jenny looks back at Serena. From the photos that she saw, Serena was beautiful when she was a baby. She feels pity for her.


“Serena’s illusionary friend. I heard about that. Do you believe that this “Darla” might actually exist? This is because from the day I heard about this case, I began to believe that there is split personality.” He looks at Ms Jenny in the eyes.


“Hurm.. from what we got, Darla was only an illusionary friend of Serena as there was no record about her, black and white. No blood relation, none at all. But from my point of view, we do not know what is actually in Serena's mind. We might not understand at all who Darla is to Serena, might be split personality," she pauses. "However, it’s not whether I believe or not, it was through the investigation. Who cares what I believed? She was convicted already. Mr Max, may I remind you that we are not here to investigate but to help her.” Ms Jenny lifts her eyebrows to show that she is serious. He smiles and nods.


“Okay, I will tell you a brief report about Serena. This is her file, make sure you read it. You will take over her case starting from next week. Serena is twelve years old. She was abused by her father since childhood and suffered severe injuries. Her mother was the same. They were locked up at the basement of the house to cover her father’s crime. They have no other relatives. They lived in Wearwood. Serena killed her father using a kitchen knife. Before that happened, her mother helped Serena to runaway to call for help. Instead she came looking for his father........”

Aku Mau Pergi Jauh..

Yesss... I need time 4r myself... hurmm.. It has been lingering around d people surround me but never about me.. wat I want, wat I need.. I need a break, a longggg break... Can anyone give me dat????